Chapters.

Hello there lovelies!

So, lately things got a little bit wild in my little life and my blog posts were to say the least- pretty sad. After a very busy year I had a lot of time to myself this summer to consider life and to slow down and process things. This year was one that has definitely changed me forever, and I don't think I will ever be the same again. The people I've met, the experiences I've had, have all shaped me. This year I found out so much more about what it is to be me. I am comfortable with me, I am not ashamed of my likes and dislikes, and I let people take me as I am- and in that way this year has been one of the best years of my life. It's been a crazy roller-coaster but in complete and total honesty I would not change it for the world.

I deleted a post that I wrote earlier this week, because in essence it was a conversation that I should have had with my best friend. It was a post for her and a little for me to get myself together and process. I deleted the post because I didn't need it any more. And because now I'm closing that chapter.

So this is it, this blog post marks the closing of an old chapter and the starting of a new one. 

And I think this little mantra stolen from Tumblr was a good way to kick off this new beginning.

I've been thinking a lot about new beginnings lately. I recently moved house, so that's a new start in itself. I am starting a new school year, and many other new adventures. It's crazy to comprehend that you can change your life any time you want to these days. You could completely change your routine- you could buy an one way ticket somewhere, stop eating meat, dress exclusively in blue, start belly dancing, write a book, make a new friend, see a new place- we sit there in our comfort zone and our little box what is normal and routine, when if you look at your life, you don't actually have to.

We can change our lives right this second if we really wanted to.

We don't have to wait for a date or time too.

This second, this moment right here could the the instant you decide to change your life. You don't have to wait for a new year, a new week- your life doesn't start on a Monday morning at 6.30am. If you wanted to change your life at half past one on a Sunday afternoon, or 3am on a Tuesday morning you can do that. I mean, really think about the things that are holding you back- are they really restricting you as much as you think? Or in actuality- those walls and boundaries and restrictions in your hear, are you building them up yourself?

So here we go: this is a new start right here. And here's what that new start entails:

• This blog will only have positive posts on it, and I'm not sorry at all. People underestimate how powerful spreading love and happiness and positive energy is, you can change someone's whole day if they read something that's going to encourage them and make them smile and give them a little push.
• Kick ass every day in one way or another.
• Wake up and achieve at least 3 goals every day.
• No leaving the hard stuff till last.
• Eliminate all negativity in your daily routine- if that's a bitching session with your friends that leaves you angry at the world, change it up- make the outcome of that conversation positive. By all means vent, but make sure that it leads somewhere, make sure you can move forward from it, trust me it makes you feel so much better.
• Keep your friends and family close, do not push the ones you love away- they will keep you stable, they will keep you grounded, and somewhat help with your sanity.
• Be honest always, if someone asks you something important, personal- be real with them. Being real is the most important thing in my life, and I gravitate towards people who are comfortable and real about themselves. I like honest people, I like up front people, people who don't talk shit or lie, and those are the kinds of people I aspire to be.

So here it is. My new start, my plan to seize the day and make a change- because you are the only person who can change your life to be what you want.

Peace and love and all that corny stuff.

Have a great day lovelies xxx

Feel how you feel.

Alrighty kids, so we all know what its like when you have a period time where it feel like you cannot get it together no matter what. It's like everything is messing up at the same time: your friends are falling out, you feel like you're fat, your family life is draining, work or school is just overwhelming you completely- and life just generally sucks. You feel like you want to sleep through the day and just hide away from all your problems and issues. It happens to every person in the world, you are not alone in those awful days or even weeks where you just feel like nothing is working out for you- it happens.

One thing that's always worked for me on days or weeks or just periods of time like that, on an emotional level, is music. Here's the thing though, I think music is a great escape, a really powerful way of feeling however you feel. Whenever I've had one of those totally emotionally draining days and you just want to be sad or alone or angry, I always end up playing the sad songs on my iPod, and I get lost in it. Sometimes people just need to accept and feel how they feel about things. Even if you're sad or mad about something so trivial and stupid, sometimes it's the small things that build up and get to you- human beings are not designed to bottle up emotions. To quote the literary love of my life John Green's, The Fault in Our Stars: "That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt" The truest statement of all, sometimes you just need to feel and express how you feel. Sad, loud, angry, resentful, beautiful, heartbreaking music is such a good way to "feel how you feel". Someone has put what you're feeling into words and are singing it with all their force- music is an amazing release in that way.

Personally I play the sad tracks first, then the angry ones- then it kind of mellows out while I sit and process and listen and think through whatever it was that was making me feel bad. Then usually I end up listening to Beyonce sing Resentment ( *cough* link here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1aWqEa3Ce8 *cough*) and I get all sassy and cool off- then I look in the mirror take a breath (and usually a shower to wash away all the negativity) and I get on, because you cant run away from your responsibilities or your issues for too long.

If it's not music then use art, or singing or shouting, running, dancing, walking or writing- try blogging, it's one of the most therapeutic things I've ever done.
People need an outlet, so find yours. You need to feel how you need to feel sometimes. Feel sad, feel angry or hurt that's fine- even if it's pointless, you deserve to feel how you feel.
But after time you need to stop, progress and move on, because in life you have to let go sometimes.